Beautiful Agony

Never knowing whether I'm making the right decisions kills me...

Especially when pieces of me are still vulnerable to the presence of the past...

But I guess 'such is life'...

So many questions,

So little answers,

But I look forward to how it all seems to fade when you walk by.

Like time standing still, mind goes blank.

 All there is left...

Is a feeling...

A feeling that has to be muted for the progression of the platonic aura this is now...

Searching for a piece of mind...

Searching for truths...

The real...

 Will it be too late when its discovered.

May we be strong and brave.

Though the turmoil we endure emotionally...

Physically,

Mentally...

It wears us down.

Constant reminders.

Ever spinning and inescapable thoughts.

The battle between heart and mind.

That thin line between reality and where our minds really take us seems to thicken just a Little with each passing day.

But until that line becomes a mile wide,

I take in and enjoy this beautiful agony.