Paying For Borrowed Time

Devoid of actual thought

Acting without reflection

Absent minded emotion

Progression with no regard for the future

No thought of consequences

Living in those brief points in time

Emotions rising, but not given any concern

Wrapped up in the stolen moments

Unaware of the toxicity brewing

Masked by the excitement of secrecy 

Complicated, 

Yet intriguing 

Sucked in by each others ability to hold on,

But even when it is let go, pushed away, and down the road "forgotten"...

The past is never over

Memories can't be erased

There is always a reminder

A song, a show, a smell, a place...

The past will find its way back

Your conscious holds onto a lot

It soaks up every occasion...

 It remembers

No matter how hard you try to shut it out

These flashbacks are triggered by something

Bringing about memories, feelings, thoughts...

The ones that are supposed to be left behind

Which in turn could stir up a few questions

The haunting "what ifs".....